my head's spinning and my throat soared t the f-ing max.
im in great pain and im feeling very tired
& i think im missing baby a lil more when im feeling this way
i dint recieved any of his letter this week and im glad that he wrote the letter back home t his family (: omfg, baby you are just so cute !!!!
i wonder ~ boyf's sis says that she's gonna show me what he wrote. lol-ing
she says he was funny, and i can imagine :x
okay, im bored luh
im so freaking hungry, but i lost my appetite cos of my freaking throat
tsk tsk luh
i gotta nothing t blog but i just feel like typing
pongie's place seems like a second home for us luh; chalet-ing everyday
and wtf, i left my magazine at pongie ( arrrrhhh shit!! )

if only baby was around ):

NO LETTERS FROM BABY LAST NIGHT ):
rrrffttt. today's gonna be a better day; i hope.
im freaking hella bored right now and i really do hoped that i was nua-ing at xy's bed like never waking up luh. omfg !!! i really have many rest-less nights and im becoming a panda overnight(s) lol.
i cant make it for bball matches this week cos im working. tsk tsk.
and its been more than a week that we had been chalet-ing at pongie's place, haha.
and this morning i helped spencer(pongie fat dog) t clean up his shit. lol
im love and home-sick alrd, so this means im heading home tonight and sleep like someone who never ever sleep in her entire life before, im gonna head straight t bed and shut my eyes then go lala land and im having so many and and(s) and whatever ~
can time just like pass faster please ?????
boyf says that he's gonna request for girlf visit on the 1st dec so im pinning hopes for goody news :D
its been long baby, so so long.
and i miss my gfs like kinda many
and i miss you the most!!! rrttfff.

i dont wanna history t repeat !! please ~
i dont wanna take the wrong path when i alrd know it
so back off from me, please ~
im turning so weak till i can resist myself ):
you just dont seems t understand the fact that
a girl is mentally weak, they need many love
and if you give them whats sufficent, they will really love you
so whole-heartedly. so please, i wanna be a bad ass.
i need t breathe really badly.
the feelings are suffocating and im at a real loss
oh my goodness

baby; if only you was here with me and held my hand ):

oh SATURDAY, well ~ im happy in a sense that i can party later on and sad in another sense cos the new week in coming . aahhhhh !!!!! im speaking NO-sense things. lol
wtf.......... and im like soooo bored luh. left alone in the office cos godfather went to the bank and im like so fcuking bored. i supposed i gotta lotsa things t do but i had almost like COMPLETED everything alrd. rrahhh
AND WHY IT SEEMS LIKE THE CLOCK AINT TICKING. i rem that last time that i lift my head up t check the time, it was like 11am and now its like 11.10am. omfg. sucha miserable 10 mins. god !!!
i gotta another like 4 hours plus and so before i can head home t change and fly over t pongie place for his house warming then wish that partying dont stop tonight cos xy says that we might be heading t MOS. grrrrr !!! i dont like MOS, cos the rNb dancefloor is freaking really freaking pack and the space is like really darn small. everywhere would be filled with people thou, i know i know!!! ok.
hope its gonna rocks me party-ing tonight. its been long baby.

im feeling restless and i wanna like fly back t xueyi's bed cos its superb comfortable and whoolala ~
P/S : ITS COST LIKE S$1,300.00 FOR JUST THE MATTRESS -.-''
so ex luh. okay. im so excited for tmr house warming at pongie house cos after that we are like either gonna pub/club. its been like freaking long long long since i ever ever relax myself. omfg, im so tied down by everything. so its like really really
still really-ing time for me t like go wild and play hard.
i think lychee martini would really be love if i have one tmr (:
and the best part is i gonna work like on sunday early in the morning 8.30am and im not sure how the hack im gonna survive, but then ....... :D
i got another like 4 hours before i can head home and shower then buzzz off for clinic then go back home again and get my clothings for my love-lies weekends
hooray X 8276439483647 times i swear . lol
this week had been a really fast one
i dread t work suddenly, oh man !!!
i wanna go home (whines!)
:(

baby, i miss you so much. can you like come back now?
this emptiness is taking over my perseverance any moment
and its seriously killing me like wtf.
Its not as easy as i thou; not as simple as it seems. oh , wtf
i over estimated myself and saw reality
its so scary boy,
im drained mentally, and i dont know what's a better way t work my feelings out
i promised you that i wont complain, but baby im trying. oh wells ~
i thou i'll be fine, but im losing control ):
the letters written t you always seems beautiful, but internally i swear im bleeding
im losing everything, i wanna run away from this commitment but somehow
there's something that holds me back.
this feelings are overwhelming right now and i just cant take any step backwards.
tell me how long more need i endure ?
tell me whats on your mind right now ?
i dont wanna dash you hopes you pin on me, thus im finding the best way t work
my feelings right. and it seems so much like im pouring my sorrows t this keyboard that my 8 lil fingers are like typing with the speed of like .............
wtf, seriously i dont enjoy emo-ing and this stupid feelings sucks a zillion balls !!
but im down; darn down and so worn out mentally
i kinda lost the reason that i convinced myself t hang on. ommfg !!
lol. okay. i'll be fine after this.
i hope ~

thanks love-lies :DD
happy belated 19th myself. i enjoyed myself many many and i really do appreciated those that rem and wished me. with mucha loves.
A BIG BIG THANKS.
and baby aint around this season ):

i swear im god darn tired cos for the whole night yesterday i was at pong sai kou place painting his new room and bleh bleh with the rest and now im at work like soooo early , omgh i cant believe that im at work ????!!!! im really like sooooo tired ):
i think the rest are equally worn-out like me . LEND ME A BED SOMEONE !!?? please ~

had a wonderful night yesterday night, bf's sister brought me out for my advanced bday celebration as she was free and aint sure when her next off day would then be ?! so we went over t causeway for dinner and movie (: we had JACK'S PLACE and watched the game plan. gosh, dint managed t have sufficient time t recharge my camera, rrrahhh !!!!!
so dint really took mucha photos. will update them when i linked them t labby. im so tired, facing the monitor in office so early in the morning really makes me like sooo darn tired. omfg, i got plentiful more t type luh !!!! MANY MANY SO MANYYY!!!!

and i really enjoyed the show last night :D



Quarterback Joe Kingman is known as one of the toughest players to ever take the field. Blessed with amazing strength and agility, he's famed for being able to handle any hit, no matter how ferocious. Kingman's Boston-based pro football team, The Rebels, is chasing their long-awaited championship and Joe has been living the ultimate bachelor fantasy: he's cool, rich, famous and the life of every party and there are a lot of parties. But his dream is suddenly sacked for a loss when he discovers Peyton, the 8-year-old daughter he never knew existed, on his doorstep. Now, just as his career is soaring, Joe must learn to juggle his old lifestyle of parties, practices and dates with supermodels while tackling the new challenges of ballet, bedtime stories and baby dolls--all without fumbling. Equally perplexed is his hard-edged mega-agent, Stella Peck, herself without a parental bone in her body. But, as the championship grows nearer, Joe is about to realize that the game that truly matters has nothing to do with money, endorsements or even touchdowns--it's all about the really tough stuff: patience, teamwork, selflessness and winning the heart of the one little fan who turns out to count the most.

and i sweared i laughed like a freak and real loudly :D darn hilarious
weehaaaw ~ and i love bf's sis like many many
and i ought t go back t work NOWWWW !!!!

im glad that i dint gave up on you. you brought me surprises that keep me standing strong. and baby, you're my sweetest drug !!
your letter really like made me laugh like a complete retard, lol
i dont mind being one thou, love is blind and dumb (:
im so in <3 with you darl
sighs, hope all my gfs are really fine. felt kinda heartache when i see them shed
darling, if its really heartbreaking then we really gonna learn how t move on alright ? (thou im aint learning ) lol X) okay, whatever ~ haha.
bitches; all 3 of you are the angels in my heart and i'll always be there
and now, i really need t head back t excel and continue typing the upcoming project doc. omfg im rreeaallyy like gonna-die-of-typing. wtf !!!!!!!!!
i rather maple luh

and i really do love only what you brings ):
sighs baby, im so emo now. and emo is love ok !
ting; im so sorry, i dint realise that i had hurt you, it wasnt my intention and i swear i do love you many many (: gf, you are still who i said i cherish like fcuk.
i dont mean t be so harsh and its the impolite words are outta concern. i know you know what i meant (: and i love you thou <3
after tuesday ends, wednesday's gonna approach and whoolala ~ baby's letter is on the way right postman ????
2 more hours for work t end and im gonna go home for a hot shower and head straight t clinic, then im gonna head home. i still got 5 more days before this week is over, so wish me good luck :DDDD
i really feel t maple now and ting is enjoying hers like wtf. (grreen with envyy )
maple really does kill time so thats bout it (:
2 more levels t second job , cchheeeerrsss
P/s : if its gonna continue raining tonight after work then i gonna waste meso t help
my char buy sweater luh .

OKAY, I KNOW ITS SOOOO ......... !!!
rofl ; wweeeehhhaawww ~

raining monday, cold morning. im glad that i wasnt caught in the rain (:
today isnt a bad morning for me, cos maybe i gotta enough rest. imagine i slept till 6 in the evening yesterday after i gotta home straight after clinic in the morning. i sweared i was god darn tired luh and i just fell asleep when the last thing i remembered was shaun talking t me, wroops ~
im homed-sick i swear, the first and last thing that alway come t my mind lately will always be HOME; my room :D how i wish im home like right away.
NO clinic tonight, so i can rest tonight (: yuppie ~
im thinking of whether t go for a jog after work and i think if the weather's fine then i should go jogging. Two more days and im gonna recieve babey's letter, and im like, HAPPY !!! and 98.7fm is playing i fell in love with the Dj Dj ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
haha. i fell in love with my bigboy bigboy ~ ~ ( rhymes )
okay, i know its ......
my weekends was simple and nice, accompanied bf's sis over t her friends place and play mahjiong. a straight 3 rounds non-stop sitting beside her t see her play really did nearly killed my butt. omfg. i sweared, i almost die of sitting): omfg !! and im not a good road directory uh !!?? lol.
im lazy t cont typing thou im really hella bored ):
lol :S

I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor
I wanna let you walk away tonight without a word

I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling
OOoh, if you were here right now,
I swear I'd tell you this

[Chorus:]
Baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keepin it inside, it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you (to you)
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls, yeah
I can see the edge,
But I can't take the fall, no
I've memorized the number
So why can't I make the call
Maybe cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility

[Chorus]

No, no, no

I don't wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
That everything I hold in
Is everything I can't let go (oooh, can't let go)

Cause BABAYYYYY

[Chorus]

Don't you know it baby
I don't wanna waste another day
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Oooh, I'm inconsolable
Whoaa yeah
I'm inconsolable

im still in much holiday mood, lol x) and i just realised i dint step outta of house yesterday. haha!!! aunt was saying that the fact that i was being sucha good girl was ...... lol. im so bored, luckily i woke up on time today. i was 5 mins late, so it aint that bad luh uh (: im counting down t my bday luh and i have no plans of where t go. i think i aint celebrating this year. nothing's special about birthday also, just relax and chill like any other day.
being happy everyday = birthday everyday :D
today's wenhui bday so happy 19 t you ; best wishes !!
im pretty bored now and i missed baby like more than fcuk. sighs, the days are long i know there's still a v.long way t go luh ):
but still, im reluctant t relinquish
if i can dl maple here, then i think like superb shiock luh. lol
bitch is busy with her work and yet t reply my mails; i dont get what she was tryna telling me in her first mail , omfg. nana have alrd reached her workplace and have plentiful of stocks t pack and ting is gonna start her part-time later. lol. its her first day and she's very nervous. relax darl, take a chill pill (:
okay, im not a story teller (:
and P/s : it doesnt pay t be nice ; seriously !!! omfg
i've been throu the hardship and it sucks big time (:
im heading t baby's place and meet his sis tonight after clinic, and i think im staying over (: 2 more days of work !! rah !!!
enjoy the process of being worn-out ; time passes faster you know?
baby, i wanna see you so badly.
can i climb the wall ? but im afraid i cant take the fall
):

happy public holiday (:
im gonna stay at home all day long and home is peace .
recieved baby's letter and im soooo touched.
i love you baby <3
im gonna maple again.
life's so empty w/o you.
and nothing's gonna change :D
big loves for big boy.

i gotta wake up like 7.30 in the morning tmr and i seriously dont know why im still sitting with my eyes so wide in front of the desktop. omfg, im gonna die tmr ;
im done. awe !!!!!!
with many many many yay-ness. this weather's freaking shiock t sleep with luh.
i have been sleeping for less than 12 hours for my weekends. whee ~
and the best thingy is i aint tired at all. look and sound so weird on the surface
LOL. okay, i really needa run towards my bed like with the speed of 20km/hr
then shut my eyes tight, if not im doom for sure.
wtf, i miss baby when the raindrops approaches.
fcuk fcuk ;
i dont have him with me )=

i was a good girl today. helped mom with the chores, tidy up my messy room and played maple for like 5 hours. i hadnt played for quite while and i think i just didnt wanna log out. LOL. i think im meeting wing soon. she's gonna come over and eat the porridge i cooked today. haha, im sure you are gonna praise me bitch (:
gonna go tampines tmr and look for janet darl. i think it had been years since i last saw her, she called last week asking for a meet-up cos she misses me. LOL
im glad t hear that darl. we're gonna have endless conversations i promised.
im so bored now.
and baby, do you know lil lil things really do makes me happy?
im feeling very restless now.