life have t go on. Im not a good gf, i dont know how t love and the way i love is not the way you want things t be. When i look back into all your promises, the hurt that im getting is really overwhelming. I love you more than myself but i realised the only way t love better is loving myself first. When i see how you react, my heart numbed with ache and i realised, from the very start it always seems i bring shame to myself. Making me a repeative fool :(
i really tried all my best boy, but nothing can ease you.
somehow or rather, im so sick of this(my life)
when i read back, hahha its always being together and not, i know its like duh!
but its really drastic. it seems like why CANT you just not make me cry ? why cant you just spend a lil more time saying baby i love you? why cant you just make another try t keep me cool? its just these simple steps to ease me completely but it was never once achieved. Was it so hard t show how you really love me like how you keep repeating when you was inside? Was it just that easy to put your feeling aside? im having hella sucky times and im crying like a fucktard internally.
boy, i just have t admit that's how mucha i love you and the impact makes me wanna slap youuuuuuuuuuuuu !
rahhhh !
