Off day ytd was quite fulfilling. met my ah boy and hweeting becos she was down in love. awrhs, so sad for her but i was there for her. I helped her by making her wounds swell deeper :D how nice of me right boy ? BASIC COURTESY! chilll laaaa :D
we went for xinwang then do some girls slacking and after that, thomson prata cos im craving for that, but dint turned out nice. Many of the ex navalies was present. We went for chilling out at dam and talked like real bitches. HAHA ! =x
Its started raining so we went into the car and non-stop hits then it got too stuffy then went out again. Then rain again, then i say GO HOME! i think im being a lil very ....... but best are always there t endure and shower me with the nods and OKs.
lol, a very small thank you :D Ah boy protested t send me under the block as it was raining but its like she missed the carpark entrance and had t go one big round.I shout no need la, she yelled NEED!!! I lost with very nice feeling. Haha, cos she send with soooo many love that i cant tahan. omfg':D its nice hearing mary say yea ya tgt making the atmosphere uber sweet. Just pray hweeting nose had stop running :X
kill me pls angelina, i will shower you with my basic courtesy cos ilu so.
& pls pls, when you are down, dont just think of me alone do some actions by calling me and beg me forrrr help. I'll give the best you dumbell !

ps: best were there for me as well, knowing i need them equally much :) im strong popeye, ah boy is betty boooooo . huhur

today's off day :O home playing online girly games and doing nothing & today is our 4yrs10months anniversary. went for scanning ytd after work. 100% boy! im speaking with no rythm. i just hoped nana and wing was there for me last night when the rain nearly pour.

idk why i really can get quite tensed in some factors that i read. This feeling just cant seems t calm me down. I celebrated my birthday yesterday :) Thanks t all who was there. Thanks for the sweet cake and the perfume. Too bad wing aint there, my skinny bitch. Happy belated b'day yuan ping. May your 20th celebration was wild and cool:D Many factors with no explainations are running throu my mind. I know my post is really very random, but i just wanna voice how im feeling now. What do one actually expect in love ? I realised i always got this different point of viewsssss in seeing love from others. Not all, but some. Nothing is smooth in this world, why upset yourself over something you know that will not bring harm and make yourself cry like one finding fault with yourself ? You cant expect spoon-feeding in love, this is what i learn, cos you will make yourself the loser. You cant expect all these and that when you are actually a mirror reflection. Nothing is fair, but you have t play fair and smart. If everyone had that view that i cant lose, i must win. Then there wouldnt be a loser. Sometimes, i find being a loser cool. Becos the benefit from losing makes one lesson vulnerable and more precious :) i find falling hard lesser pain, cos i will be immune t it soon. I will cry, i will get hurt but much lesser each time. I feel so dumb sharing my views here. wtf , but i cant help it.

Read few of my best blogs and i got emotional caught-up. Few things i would like t share. The journey with me and love was really long. I got countless downs and a countable ups. In life, many have different experiences, love; family; point of views in many aspect will definately be different. Its really true that love isnt everything, but love makes someone everything. There are ups and downs in life, one cannot just expect ups but rejects downs. There would then be a balance in how you see things and handle them. Love is selfish, everything is selfish! but there's a choice in how you actually visualise selfish. All my best would know i gotta hell-up countless cries and breaking down. I cant give love up, its a fact that i ought t admit and im proud of it. Things just started t get better after 5 years, im happy but its doubtless that im feeling emotionally and mentally worn-out. Its how i explain LOVE. The road of journey is long, i just hope the wise choice is being made. We have t stand strong in order t obtain and achieve with pride, but not complaining and gaining nothing.
:)

i learn how not t be so dumb t trust your work boss. politics are killing me very badly. i just have t act blur t make life easier.
baby was sweet t me yesterday night, hands held so firmly across the cross-junction.
eyes locked onto each other's so gently.
i love you that much boy.

im freaking bored now at home. waiting for love t wake up but i think it's really gonna take some time. Feeling very moody over some case-sensative and im not in the right state of mind t figure how should i handle thing in the correct manner. I just feeling uber sucky now and i feel like smashing his head with my fingers. roll eyes. Im kinda feeling a lil hungry now. sighs, but i think that it would be quite a tough job t wake him up. sometimes, i just dont understand. I tried cracking my brains, the answer will never be sufficient t please. god darn ! 2nd prize today really very heart-aching. four numbers that i bought open, but jumped. -.-'' ALOT OF $$$$ EH ~! kao. im really very moody now. sighs. for so long, you always fail t see me and how you made me felt. ALWAYS, ALWAYS !

another mj session coming up. brb
lol

FRIENDSTER is freaking lag and idk if im the one who makes it lag due t me being so darn impatient or its really lag. wtf ! just ended mj session and im like superb bored. gonna work at 7 and for the time being, im just doing nothing. baby went out t look for his friends and gave me a very gooooodd excuse becos im mahjiong-ing and its a really good and reasonable reason t cover his backside and shut my mouth. lol.
roll eye, f you baby. The page that accepts my comments had been loading for hours laaa. wth. week by week, very fast. many can see my xiao wu wu soon. lol. i bought something for him & i think its like really uber cute. im getting bored with the topics im trying t tell. bye

21.10.08
baby and i had offically announced husband and wife. It seems really drama, this 5 years wasnt really easy, but at least i pulled throu. I believe we would, in future.
& here, i lay my hands tgt with yours.


26.10.08
traditionally tgt. It's really a uber long week. Feeling really worn-out. been throu sleepless and endless night. OH GOD! but it is going t be all worthwhile. Just praying real hard nothing goes wrong like my gown wont drop in the middle of the tea ceremony. no one fell and see my panties etc. lol. kidding. :) it was alright thou. baby took real great care of me. but my toes in that heels ache like f. glad i dint slip and fell :x
the only thing was wing not around :( im like super lazy t update the procedure, let the picture do the talking. i hope i will upload them with a story line that tells.
lol. flu and fever had been haunting me over the days. i detest drownsy pills. i miss those sweet vitamins.