looking back and recapturing. time really flies so quickly, 2007 hadnt been a good year for me at all. The love between baby and me was rocky since the start but im glad that we are still tgt thou in this very funny manner, i think i still love you so.
As for my family, after all those conflicts between me and baby, me and friends revolving around me, i saw the importance of them so clearly. They will always be those standing tall for me, showering me with all those love when i feel bullied or what-ever-so. They never once left me. Home was the only warmest ever cosy place that i will U-turn t when im dumped or hurt. Im happy that i dint neglect anyone of my precious family members :) Im thankful that i learn a few precious lessons when things dont go my way.
Now bout bitching, it had been another year that we know each other alrd and im glad that we still unite so much as before, thou we are all busy with our own life and schedules, we dint drift apart much. Im filled with joy whenever i look and think back. It beyond words that this love could be explain, its more than anything t me.
As for my work, its been months that i start working, i came t realize that being independent is really important. I used t enjoy the feeling of being over dependent on someone, be it baby or gf(s) ? i think its just a bad habit that i never thou of kicking. But somehow, as times passes by, I slowly saw the importance of being alone for moment, stopping t think whats really going on? how long it had been? so and so..
And for now, being alone is never a thing that i would dread t happen.I find it so perfectly fine and there's many self-reflection i did t grow. There are really times when people need t be alone t be able t think properly :)
I learn how t walk alone when bad times approaches, how t cry alone when i couldnt control my emotions, how t calm down when i know im about t flare.
Maybe, its when the hurt's so hard t bear and there aint anyone t turn t. And this really teaches me how t take care and pacify myself and handle my emotions right. Cos its me that only have control of myself, im the only one that should be responsible for anything.
Prolly another 6 hours will be 2008 ! thou, it aint gonna be a happening night for me tonight, im still looking forward t the next year cos im feeling closer t baby's return. Im gonna leave bad times behind and bring all those good memories with me and keep me company. im not one that bear grudges and bring them where-ever-i-go.
so, darlingggsss let bygones be bygones
and we'll hold hands and cont this bond.
:D


countdown with me tonight baby
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE :)
with so much loves;
<3

27th 28th = LOVE !
met my gf(s) :)
im real happy when im with yall, we can always do the craziest things on earth and laugh like nobody is looking, hold hands as we walk and share all joys and pour all sorrows wholeheartedly. lol, i can never stop laughing when the i think of those brainless things we do tgt hahaha.
Thou its 4 bucks in exchange of these 2 lil lil eerrkkies, its the laughter in return that was precious :)






PS : that's how bad my eyes looked like :( so pain buden i cant control myself t stop rubbing

omfg. it had really been a very superb uber duper longggggg time since i like blogged ?!! lol. got many stuffssss t update :)))))

24/12/07

BAD NEWSSSSS #1 - I FAILED MY ADVANCED LIKE AGAINNN !! omfg, im like so dumb -.-''
bleh bleh bleh, and the next test date is like 2 months away oookkk, 25/02/2008 like 2008 alrdy ooookk!!

BAD NEWSSSSS #2 - THERE'S SOMETHING THAT MADE MY EYES LIKE SWOLLEN LIKE ATOMIC BOMB FOR MANY DAYS!! since like christmas till nowwww!!! omfg, its like darn OUCH-FUL ok, reallyy!!! the doctor ointment like CANNOT HEAL ME AT ALL :( and these days are just so suckyyyyy. Hello, eye needle (bak jiam in hokkien), can you like SHOOOOOO away from me pleaseee? you have alrdy inflicted severe pain t me for sooo many days and its real torture. f off pleaseeee !!!!
Ps: & im almost done with bad newwsss :DD

im in like realllyyy deep deep shitttt :S
i took like many MC(s) / off this week becos of like the dumb bak jiam i've gotta that lead me t the extreme of not wanting t work at all, like NOT AT ALL !! and there goes my pay :D how cool ! omfg, so sad lahhh !!
and idk what's wrong with me like recently !?? idk since when i adapt the habit of typing as if like im screaming or dragging the last word so muchhhhhh??! hahhaa okay, W-H-A-T-E-V-E-R-R-R-R-R-R-R-R !!! :)

today's like new year eve and after midnight its like 2008 ! buden it really look very normal on the surface, there's nothing really happening like gonna happen. lol
as for me, i should just be happy that its another 365 days that i just survived healthily excluding the fact that my eyes are swollen like elephant leg now :(
i not like heading anywhere for any count down, not becos of the eyes thou partially and idk what im talking bout cos it look so retarded -.-''
maybe its becos i dont fancy crowded places as much as before, i need p.e.a.c.e!
okay, rubbish !

:x

My Horoscope Reads :

It's not selfish to want to be by yourself, it's healthy. Give yourself some time.
Give yourself the gift of peace and quiet today. It's not selfish to want to be by yourself, it's healthy. You are in an inward phase now, which will help you recharge your emotional batteries, center yourself, and get better prepared to be there when the people you love need you. Be honest with your needs, and as long as you keep your people in the loop, they'll be cool with you pulling back from your social scene for a little while. Everyone needs a break now and then!
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Yeah! I really do need a break now. The old rusty batteries need time t recharge themselves internally.I guess they're over-used alrd. Give them some time t take a rest, they had been playing a great role all these while ! Providing me sufficient emo-energy t stand strong another day. Now, its my turn t let give them a break :D
Im gonna hibernate soon!! Until my internal organs are fully recovered. I'll be there for gf(s) that need me ! I can multi-task ooookkk !!
Meanwhile, im pulling back myself from everything.



you have less than a day.

Im just feeling so down; so compressed, idk why ? couldnt figure out what went wrong ?I just feel SO-NOT-RIGTH-FROM-TOP-TO-TOE. Things piled up so suddenly till i got sufficient room t breath. i was thinking, yea ! its so true that i have many friends around me. Quite an amount that there are times when i leave my closest and bf t feel so insecure. But gfs, i really wanna you all t know that yall are all the i ever need. I feel sad when i dont give you enough attention, i dont wanna yall t feel left out by me. buden, it seems so redundant t explain if yall meant the world t me, if im always repeating these magic words, it would soon turn out t be NOTHING BUT MERELY WORDS. That's how mucha i care for how yall feel. Sighs. This is affecting me sooo sooo sooo badly. I sweared.
There are times when i really wanna turn in t yall, but its just a matter of fact that i had t admit all of you have your role t play as a gf. I know yall wouldnt mind t console me when i really need a helping hand, but darlingss, becos i really cherish everything, its more that i dont wanna trouble yall cos i know even yall not here physically, deep down you're with me!!
sighs. many things making my day suck like rockstones. WTFF !!! i freaking hella dont understand why im being blamed for everything that's not done nicely or what-so-ever !! omfg. I really upset, and i felt so small outta sudden. TIME T WAKE UP AND DIGEST THE FACT THAT THE ONLY WAY T SURVIVE IS BE CRUEL AND GET YOURSELF AT THE SAFEST POSITION. if this wasnt for money, i wouldnt had bear all those blames and swallow them down my throat !! :( there are more behind which i guess im still unaware bout uh ? i cant defeat them, but im gonna do so !!
hard time will past really quickly, i just have t bear with them :)
i'll be fine. I CAN BE ~
and baby, dint you say you'll be there ?
oh ~ how true!


baby, your deadline is a day from now.
im really losing hope.

13th - bid farewell t PING PONG :(

The past few days was more than LOVE. It was fulfilled. It seems so true that happy days never last and its the start of a new week. WELCOME MONDAY !! not suffering from any blues :) ookkk, a quick update before i forget anything :D
13th
went t pongie place with a few. played mahjiong with mich, bf sister, alex :)
pongie's gonna enlist t army tmr. And i met aunty today as well also. It had been long since the time we last met and im happy for what you told me today. Thanks for every lil lil things. I appreciate all :) left pongie's place about dawn and went back t bf place. And i slept for less than 4 hours which idk why ?????????????

14th - A long long day !





:)))

I was being annoying by disturbing the deep sleep of bf's sis, i swear i couldnt get t sleep veryyyy badly! HAHA!! buden, i dint manage t wake her up so i flip throu the issue of NOV and DEC women's weekly! Then i start playing word search till like 2pm. I woke up at 11.30am oookkk when i only slept at 8am in the morning. My body system is really-so-something-wrong ?! wtffff ! head t chong pang for lunch and bought some clothes :) I think we really know how t take our own sweet time & we super know how t ttuuuuuu(hokkien) !! In the end, we got ourselves into deep trouble by not having sufficient time t prepare. HOW COOL ~
Hurry bathe and went for dinner with bf's family then head t town with sis for a lil party held for her friend's birthday and sis's and i think the place is call parklane suite if i rem correctly ? Anyway its beside York Hotel and i learn that that's actually a studio apartment bleh bleh bleh. It was a pleasant surprise for the birthday girl, germaine - the one in redddd !! :) ( bf's sis friend )
so long winded , okay i shall name BF'S SIS = sis oookkkkk !! troublesome t like type sooo many laaaah !! The people there are very nice and friendly, we having filling conversations and ample time spend. I enjoyed myself and i found myself in a very relief state aftermath :D At times, its really good t review on how mucha you have grown and flip throu the past memories you kept lying somewhere. Somehow or rather, i saw a drastic change in myself :)

15 & 16th - Good Girl :)
I've been sleeping really very lil, buden idk why the hella i dont feel tired at all ??? how weird ??!!! oookk, i woke up for work like 7.45am for clinic thou i slept at 5am :) stayed at home the entire afternoon and i was like supposed t take my nap buden i dint wink at all !! Haha, my new nickname is C-A-N-T-S-L-E-E-P
please name me Miss cantsleep :) i will be very happy :) lol
Went t meet yueting darl and we went for dinner then i accompanied sis t her cousin's place for mahjiong thou i dint play. LOL !
Reached bf's place like 5am againnnn and i woke up the next morning as usual for work !! buden this time i SURRENDER, i think i finally feel tired. NOW, im Miss CANsleep ookkk! HAHAHA, i head home after work and fell asleep. By the time i wake up, it was already like 7 pmmmmmm !
omfg, soo lateeee !! i was a good girl ookkk!
did the chores, changed my bedsheet , cut fruits for ah fu and shaun and sleepp again!!!

OKAYYY, IMMA GOOD GOOD GIRLLL !!!!
:D
YESSSSSSSSSS , i know you know im one :)

hold onto me tightly ! im falling apart soooo badly, i swear oookkk !!
you dumbass !!
what the hella is happening ?? i cant figure it out and im here cracking this bloody brain. stable on the surface buden going nuts inside , i can hold 2 roles oookk :D well ~ nothing t be proud of. this is sooo torture , you bloody fool
okay, i woke up darn late today becos of my greed t sleep and thanks daddy for agreeing t sent me t work with mom nagging non-stop and the best best best thing is i forgot my hp oookkk. yesssssssss man !!! wtf can ! just pray nobody calls me today especially the interview person! ohhh pleaseee !!!
tmr = off day + pongie gonna enlist armyyy !!!!
may all be gooodddd for this ping pong ass
met my gf(s) ytd and it was love, played snake and ladder and one more which i named it ''fei ji'' , not sure if thats the proper name buden whenever this name is mentioned , ALMOST ALL KNOW LA :)) my phone went low and i think i dint charge
omfg, im the best i think ( dumb like ............... )
i took a toy banana and walk all the way and like hold onto my hand even when talking and i know this looks a lil weird. haha. upload the photos soon and im sure it will be very funny :DD im worst than a retard i think and idk what im talking alrd.
im not done with the payroll thingy and im left with like 8 moreeee



you gotta me in sucha bad plight boy -
pfffft.

Tuesdays/Wednesday's supposed t be a good day for me, cos its always when i recieved baby's love letters. But its been 12 long days since the last letter :(
The date that i can visit baby was postponed again !!! its on the 24th that i can actually visit him and its 12 more days away too ~ wtf, 12 is eerrrkkk !!!
im feeling lethargic today and idk why ?? buden, i was being a VERY VERY GOOD GIRL by forcing myself t wake up and go t work. The weather isssssss freaking shiock and i think i was having a very sweet dream. I found myself sleeping in this weird upside-down, faced down post. HAHAHA, but i cant rem what the dream was ???
Nobody's in office except me and im dozing off any moment !!! One more day tmr and Friday will be love. Its off day ( SMILE SHOW TEETH CANNOT SEE EYES!! ) =DDDD
gonna celebrate boyf's sister bday.
Aunt told me t cook lunch ltr and im stuck of what t cook ? this or that ? arghhh !!
im freaking gonna rot soon, i think i shall cont with the payroll that i was half way with ytd. still got so manyyyy , yay la !!!
bye.


i hate you baby !

im excited t visit baby next monday :) someone cheer for me pplleeaassee ? ty :)
hopefully if his mom signed the dont know what form that is needed t be sign, i will be the happiest girl ever and the best christmas present :) im awaiting aunty !!
weekends was really fun. celebrate pongie's birthday plus he's gonna enlist into army next Saturday which is actually, his actual birthday. How sad uh? Okay, the venue was at ROUGE last Satuarday (08/12) It was a pretty cool place, better than MOS t me :) and i think all of us had a great time that night. More than half of us was more than dipsy. Oh well ~ as for me, all thanks t ah jian for making me drink soooo many shots. ARGHHH!! and alex the runner-up for adding salt t my wounds. i cant really rem what's on later, but i know i vomited in cab on my way home as it was really jerky.
SORRY UNCLE :x i dint meant it, but its either your skills or the road :)
i woke up quite early and shower immediately. awhhh. i smell like bad fish all over.
but i think the alcohol level subsided after the cont. 4 t 5 times of vomiting before i was K.O so there wasnt any hang-overs . phew ~
Sunday just flew soooo quickly. went Katong and pray. bliss my whole family, boyf's and my precious <3 i had quite a no of cont. meals last evening starting from 5.
OMFG !! im worse than a whatever-that-passes-throu-your-mind :) lol
chicken rice - 5.30
katong laksa - 8.30
ribs of spring chicken - 1 am
gosh, this is terrible, i know. i seriously KNOW !!! arghhh! !
welcome my fats :) im gonna store more of you and scare baby off the following monday. i told him im gonna weight up t a 100 kgs. heh.
i will do the uploading of photos when im back home tonight. dint bring the USB cable t work. im tired. wth
GO AWAY MONDAY BLUES !!!!!!!!
f off :)

I KNOW IM SUPERB nothing better t do !! haha. but i am luh :)
i guess so ~

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

:)


Are we strong baby ??

Your Relationship is Still Building Strength

You're relationship is fairly strong, but you're still working on making things solid. Make sure you're both treating each other with kindness and respect, even when things aren't going well.

:)

Am i Candy heart or Candy fart ??

You Are a Candy Fart

Listen up, stinky. Your foul personal hygiene habits aren't helping you any in the romance department. So take a long shower, pop a breath mint, and light some candles before that next date.

Ps : okay im candy fart , and its like im a dirty ass :)
im proud of it :) yay-ness im dirty !
i mean that are some situation where you can just be yourself
com'on , its good t be natural.
dont have t tell a lie when you really need t shit
or run all the way home just t bathe becos you are alrd halfway out in the streets and just becos you sweat a lil and go all the way home ?? then how many trips need you make ?? lol.
okay. imma candy F-A-R-T !!!

:)


Well~ Sometimes, i do !

You Sometimes Hold a Grudge

You aren't exactly vengeful, but you're not going to forget when someone wrongs you. And while you'll forgive the small things, you don't hand out too many second chances to people who really screw up.

:) okay. im a very kind person oooookkkkkkk !!!! heh.


The Keys to MEEEEE :)

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it. You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

and this really applies t me :)
its so so so so so true
baby has a split personality. lol

:)


im gonna knock off like soonn... 15 more minutes and here im still doing these. lol


NEXT ...........
MY JAP NAME

Your Japanese Name Is...

Reiko Asukai

and hello :DDDDD ; nice t meet you

baby's =)

Your Japanese Name Is...

Shino Inokuma

:)))

Im superb hyper :)

You Are 100% Extrovert, 0% Introvert

You are as outgoing as they come The life of the party, you're friends with everyone You're a people person, and you are quite the entertainer You love being around a crowd and acting spontaneously

LOL. girlfriends always complained im irritating and now i see why !!
hahahah.


:)

He Loves You For You

When it comes to your body, your guy hardly notices It's nothing to do with the way you look... He's just has really fallen for you But make sure to stay sexy - keep the chemistry going strong!

& this is reason why i love you so hun hun :)



okay . 5.57pm
BYEEE !!

Am I Optimistic or Pessimist ??

You Are an Optimist

You definitely see the sunny side of life, even when things aren't going so great. And while you may not be a realist, your optimism has really improved your quality of life. You have the energy to take charge, solve your problems, and enjoy life for what it is. Optimists are happier and healthier - so keep thinking positive!

:)

Im a 67% :)

You Can Make 67% of Your Crushes Fall in Love With You

Your seduction skills are practically legendary. You know how to close the deal. Just don't let someone you're really into get the better of you! As long as you keep up your end of the flirting game, you'll get the prize at the end.

:)
What's My Beauty Element ?

Your Beauty Element is Air

You're quirky, fresh, and fashionable in a surprising way. You have a beauty that's all your own, and it changes as quickly as the wind!

:)


IM ROMANTIC OOOKKKKAAYY !!!!! lol

You Are A Romantic

You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to. Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you. Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted. Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do!

:)

My Candy Heart Says :

Your Candy Heart Says "First Kiss"

You're a true romantic who brings an innocent hope to each new relationship. You see the good in every person you date, and you relish each step of falling in love. Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a romantic dinner your sweetie cooks for you Your flirting style: friendly and sweet What turns you off: cynics who don't believe in romance Why you're hot: you always keep the romance alive

:)


My <3 profile ;

Scorpio - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You're red hot passion makes anyone you date feel extremely wanted Loyalty, to the point of doing anything to protect your lover You are mysterious and charismatic - and you easily draw people in Your negative traits: You tend to be paranoid and think that the worst is going on with your lover You turn cold and mean at the first sign of conflict in relationship You sometimes become obsessed with dates - so much so that you develop jealousy early on Your ideal partner: Someone who will take the time to win you over. Not an easy task! Is able to keep up with your carnal appetite... lots of stamina needed. Reassures you of their love and loyalty on a daily basis. Your dating style: Intense. You prefer to stay in with take out and conversation - so that no one else is distracting you and your date. Your seduction style: Hot. New partners have trouble believing that your libido is for real. You have incredible sexual intuition - you always know what your lover craves A bit bossy. You know what you want, and you certainly aren't afraid to ask for it. Tips for the future: Don't be so secretive with your love - they want you the way you are Let go of your jealousy. Your partner has chosen *you* Spend more time alone, doing things you love. It will help you be less obsessive. Best color to attract mate: Dark red Best day for a date: Tuesday

:)

Number 1

Your Love Number is 1

You tend to be a stubborn lover, holding your ground in every argument You take your time falling in love. You aren't the type to lose perspective. You are loyal (to a fault), and you require the same loyalty in your sweetheart. At your best, you are a wise and inspiring partner - who sticks around.

:)

Personality Test ;

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

:)




well ~
LET'S TAKE A BREAKKKK !!!
:) heh.
im still bored !!!!

You Were a Lizard

You are able to bounce back from adversity and regenerate what was lost. Facing your fears and controlling your dreams comes easily for you.

and babey;

You Were a Cheetah

You are quick and elusive, with keen senses. You are able to have intense concentration for short periods of time.

heh.
LIZARD AND CHEETAH IN LOVE IN THE PAST AND PRESENT !! :)
im bboorrriiinnngggg !!!!!! haha

i miss those rantings we used t exchange
i miss you soooo much dearest !!!
:(

okay. im annoyed with myself like really !!!! was late for clinic yesterday like for 10 mins. omfg. many phew(s) that i dint gotta reprimanded for being late and my dumb excuse was i lao sai. okay i know that's not a very good term. diarrhoea; diarrhoea.
excessive looseness of the bowels which is not the reason :( i was late practically becos i was waiting for ah fu t come and fetch me. i was being lazy and fell asleep on nana's bed. omfg; i was superb sleepy :( frowns ~
i was lucky that ladyboss wasnt angry, and im feeling guilty luh!! but then the guilt slowly when away when i deducted my pay myself. okay im aware of how funny its seems ........... lol
it was raining like the whole day. went for the interview in the morning then head t chong pang t buy breakfast for mom and dad. i cabbed t and fro. HOW COOL! ~ and i waste freaking 9bucks just for my laziness . wtffff. pffft.
went isetan with nana and ting. got my new GUESS wallet :)
the weather was bad and my mood t shop was really off, head back before evening and went nana's place t like slack before work and this was when i can become really very lazyyyyyy !!!! :)went t meet all at safra and i head home t bed.
i had a missed call like 8.35pm and im sure that call was regarding baby's gf visit request becos it was a number ending with 6999 and i freaking hell REDIAL again and again and again. my hp screen keep reading error error ERROR !!!
wth. im feeling terrible, so at a loss, like what the hella should i do freaking do now? i tried calling like 3743724289473 times but the stupid screen keep showing the same freaking thing. THIS SUCKS big time luh. DARN !!! &@#%^@#
On my way t work this morning, i call the detention barracks t make an enquiry but i think they aint sure of whatever shit that its happening right now :(
i think its prolly becos there are shift rotations. sighs!! i try surfing the net t find for mindef's enquiry no but i just cant find the right one. i found no ways t respond t this missed call and im feeling really terrible. i wanna see baby so badly. pouts ~
it seems so near yet so far :(
rahhhh !!!

gimme a miss call boy <3

:( argh !!! im almost bonkers. so closed t tears !!!
i made an error at work like JUST luh !! and im feeling like really guilty.
im so so so so so sorry. I forgot t change the tax invoice's date and month, and due t this is a last minute thingy. aunty eve was on leave and its was my first time handling. bleh bleh bleh. anyway. im feeling really bad right now. wtf. t lazy t explain. arghh! im really sorry thou.
tmr's off day and i yet t let godfather know bout it due t my care-less-ness :x
okay. sighs. the urge t bawl now, like uber loudly is seriouly overwhelming. lol
im having bad dry cough and i can feel those phlegm making my throat t sore and voice t hoarse; how coooool. its totally a bad day.
omfg !!!!
i cant wait t go home right away
:(