looking back and recapturing. time really flies so quickly, 2007 hadnt been a good year for me at all. The love between baby and me was rocky since the start but im glad that we are still tgt thou in this very funny manner, i think i still love you so.
As for my family, after all those conflicts between me and baby, me and friends revolving around me, i saw the importance of them so clearly. They will always be those standing tall for me, showering me with all those love when i feel bullied or what-ever-so. They never once left me. Home was the only warmest ever cosy place that i will U-turn t when im dumped or hurt. Im happy that i dint neglect anyone of my precious family members :) Im thankful that i learn a few precious lessons when things dont go my way.
Now bout bitching, it had been another year that we know each other alrd and im glad that we still unite so much as before, thou we are all busy with our own life and schedules, we dint drift apart much. Im filled with joy whenever i look and think back. It beyond words that this love could be explain, its more than anything t me.
As for my work, its been months that i start working, i came t realize that being independent is really important. I used t enjoy the feeling of being over dependent on someone, be it baby or gf(s) ? i think its just a bad habit that i never thou of kicking. But somehow, as times passes by, I slowly saw the importance of being alone for moment, stopping t think whats really going on? how long it had been? so and so..
And for now, being alone is never a thing that i would dread t happen.I find it so perfectly fine and there's many self-reflection i did t grow. There are really times when people need t be alone t be able t think properly :)
I learn how t walk alone when bad times approaches, how t cry alone when i couldnt control my emotions, how t calm down when i know im about t flare.
Maybe, its when the hurt's so hard t bear and there aint anyone t turn t. And this really teaches me how t take care and pacify myself and handle my emotions right. Cos its me that only have control of myself, im the only one that should be responsible for anything.
Prolly another 6 hours will be 2008 ! thou, it aint gonna be a happening night for me tonight, im still looking forward t the next year cos im feeling closer t baby's return. Im gonna leave bad times behind and bring all those good memories with me and keep me company. im not one that bear grudges and bring them where-ever-i-go.
so, darlingggsss let bygones be bygones
and we'll hold hands and cont this bond.
:D


countdown with me tonight baby
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE :)
with so much loves;
<3