idk why i really can get quite tensed in some factors that i read. This feeling just cant seems t calm me down. I celebrated my birthday yesterday :) Thanks t all who was there. Thanks for the sweet cake and the perfume. Too bad wing aint there, my skinny bitch. Happy belated b'day yuan ping. May your 20th celebration was wild and cool:D Many factors with no explainations are running throu my mind. I know my post is really very random, but i just wanna voice how im feeling now. What do one actually expect in love ? I realised i always got this different point of viewsssss in seeing love from others. Not all, but some. Nothing is smooth in this world, why upset yourself over something you know that will not bring harm and make yourself cry like one finding fault with yourself ? You cant expect spoon-feeding in love, this is what i learn, cos you will make yourself the loser. You cant expect all these and that when you are actually a mirror reflection. Nothing is fair, but you have t play fair and smart. If everyone had that view that i cant lose, i must win. Then there wouldnt be a loser. Sometimes, i find being a loser cool. Becos the benefit from losing makes one lesson vulnerable and more precious :) i find falling hard lesser pain, cos i will be immune t it soon. I will cry, i will get hurt but much lesser each time. I feel so dumb sharing my views here. wtf , but i cant help it.