why whenever things happen, girls can only cry? i feel like being a baby suddenly. idk why but im really stressed up by the surroundings. it seems that idk whats the right step t take next t make let the matter resolve perfectly. its really making me almost bonkers. big sigh! baby, can you teach me whats the right way for us t communicate? can you gimme time t learn a step at a time? or could you even make yourself a lil better cos its really a new chapter that we are moving into. no room for breathing is making me suffocating. & idk why it seems that asking questions had worn me out mentally soooo mucha ? i saw a change in myself, i used t like t know everything, cos im soooo scared of all. but now,i rather not know at all, feeling equally scared.this is killing me and maybe i created a barrier myself. what is it actually all about ? i feel sooo alone and insecure and its always this way. bathing ashton was the first time alone at home w/o any help.
why its so hard for me t control and take hold of the situation for once? i nvr felt like i was important for once. WHY ??????????