things are getting better the way it seems buden i've learn not t get happy and think that everything's fine, cos by then i would not have enough time t take another blow & cry or get depressed again. ashton's sleeping and im wondering why im not? brought him for his injection ytd and he cried soooo loudly. haha! next jab will be this oral sabin 1st dose. day by day, time passes soooo fast. soon, it will be my working days, guess i really have t save alot more for ashton. haha, im so happy that i found him an infant care just behind my clinic. i think nanny will be a strike out for the time being. thou, infant care seems like..... but i think its the best for the time being. The fees are just a lil more expensive than nanny, but the diff is nanny is half day but infant is full. when ashton grows older, i think he can get educated with those eyes, nose, ears etc, plus he can get t know more friends, by then he wont be anti-social. haha. lol ! i always complained t nana that im sooo bored. i miss the old days where i can play and behave like my age & she's always there t calm me down with all her words and make me feel alive again. aunty puay, i missed you ! & wing, im feeling happy for you. i hope you can grab this happiness and make sure it doesnt bring more hurts for you. Im willing t walk this route, standing strong for lil love, he needs me more than anyone. when i see your lil hands and feet grows day by day, nothing can exchange the warmth. It must be this way.