working full shift today, im just so eager t settle down for off day tmr. i wanna do so many things so i hope that doc can gimme my pay prolly ltr in the a-f-t-e-r-n-o-o-n plssssssssss ! hahaha. i miss my girl(s) like many many. & i dint visit ashton today. haha, he's my heavy baby. outta breathe when i carry him t infant care today.

just got myself back from work, feeling darn shag. im gonna take a short nap soon. Ashton's growing really well, and i bet he could recognise his mommy alrdy. Popped by his infant care and when he sees me he get very excited. When i say i wanna leave, then he will kick and cry. For both days, ytd and today he's been like that. haha, he will do the ''mama, i wana you carry me'' face. But too bad, i dont wanna get close t him cos i haven bath after work. I think its really impt t make sure im all bathe and changed int a new set of clothes before i carry him. Better play safe then t be sorry. See him do the face, my heart sanked. Aiyoyo ashton uhhh !!! i think i better lessen my trips there, if not the teachers sure wanna scold me inside. Everytime go see him then make him cry, hhaaa. make their life su-sa laaaa. ahha. Clinic got so many patients everyday, make me sooooo tiring. sighs, all like t come last min somemore! So many things t do, file cards, refill medicine, refill syrup, cleaning. Can die la, seriousssslllllyyyy. oh yea, i needa remind myself t trim ashton's nail. He got tooooo excited just now, and scratched his small lil nose and bleed loh =( surely very pain, imagine see mommy but cant be carried. sighs, poor ashton. Shall restrict myself from seeing him during lunch breaks + i got many pics t upload but im just sooooo lazy

PS : lol, i took almost a year t get this uploaded. R-E-A-L-L-Y L-A-Z-Y like what only. haha

home sweet home, back t my niang hse like soooooooooooooooo shiock. haha, idk why but just shiock. today's plan is kinda rushy and im unable t go and see ashton as im working full. I gotta make sure i get myself sanitized before i go close t him, as now the govt step down in those safety precautions and channel 5 reminds t stay vigilance anytime anywhere. lol, nowadays clinic got soooo many patients one sia. almost all high fever, cough, runny nose, sore throat. Aiyoyo. its all getting int the community like rocket & ytd news pronounced 2 dead. Just few days back, was talking rubbish with jiejie, she said this is all K-A-R-M-A. lol (must turn vegetarian, shave head, turn nun) haha, so bored. Feedbacks from ashton's infant care. He's talkative, he likes t smile alot & he plays with himself alot. He always sucks his milk soooo fast and hard and ends up getting choke -.-'' lemme share how my lil is doing now. hahaa & im gonna upload some wedding photo shots cos since im home cos the disc had been left here t rot. haha.
&&&&& before i create another post for photosssssssss

Ashton's
- 3 months, 2 weeks and 3 days old
- he can almost flip
- he sleeps with his eyes half opened
- he often dreams and can lol in the middle of the night
- he thinks that he's drinking milk even at sleep, cos he can make the sucking sound so loud, followed by sucking his fingers, hands.
- he can laugh really loud ( shall upload the video asap)
- he likes t play, and you cant walk away in the middle of playing, he will scream
- he drinks 140ml 3 t 4 hourly
- he baby talk alot alot alot
- he will mmmmmm mmmmmmmm mmmmm when shitting. haahha
- he weights almost 6.5kg
- he likes t sit in his rocker

for all that i could think of =)

stop doing this t me !!! fuck, its not as if i went outside doing anything behind your back. pls, i dont deserve this treatment. i hate you soooo much. i dont wanna talk t you, i dont wanna see you. its just so much you kill me inside.you're sucha mo-fo la ok. happily enjoying yourself not doing any good deeds. seeing + leaving me t die alone with all. mo-fo is just mo-fo. just rot t death, i swear i wont shed a f tear. nothing can ease me now, just getting so outta hand.













i cant feel myself anymore :(

tonight will be the night that i'll fall for you, over again

i just brought lil ashton back from his infant care, he's so cute la playing with himself and laughing. Those caregivers liked him alot and feedback that he's good t handle and like t smile alot. lol :) i think i needa a wishlist soon t get things organised. gonna head t kiddy palace tmr t get his feeding bottle for water. throwed 3 avent bottles away cos alrdy 3 months. Still thinking if i should get avent or piyo piyo for him?? cos i only needa smallest one. Off day is really fulfiling for me today. HAHAHAHAH !! ashton's getting fatter &&&&&&&&& cuter :}










sometimes, i wonder why i led myself int sucha state :(

i've been trying very hard t load the link int my page, but it just doesnt work & this means, try harder next time. wtf, been reloading, copy paste like 74663863 times laaaaa. Just wanna try out something new. ok, nvm just cont trying harder tmr then. Ashton's asleep in his rocker but i aint gonna wake him up cos rock rock rock and roll more shiock for him. Poor him no chance t sleep in his beloved yao lan anymore, confiscated and brought t dear's ah gong house for him t put his leg int it and do some light exercise. lol, idea right? cos he's over 100 years of age and he had a fall i think last weekend, so da yi thou of this t let him exercise his leg, cos no strength alrdy ma. Sighs, im so darn holy shit sad and pestered by the thous of dear really needing t look for a job :( he went for an interview last week, actually can, then failed cos of some certain reasonsssss and omfg. Worries came overwhelming again. shitass. jiejie is really a mj addict, she's been playing like almost every night after she ends work & sleeps like 3-4 am and wakes up like 9am. i think she's gonna take mc soon :x lol, im just dead bored now, i need someone t light up my life and the only one i can think of now is ashton. i needa shed kilo(s) asap la fat pig, yay! nana is coming over tmr t look for me. Im so excited and im sure she's gonna call me fatty! shit la, im mustttttttttt skip dinner tonight, but dear's gonns steam fish &&&&&&& justin and sherald's coming up and they are buying me sesame chicken. :( welcome fats, will send you offffffff tmr.

ashton is really lovely, i kinda sneaked outta with ah jie for mj last night. To be exact i wasnt the one playing i just wanna go out for some fresh air, be it just a few minutes or so. just finding space for some relaxing moments. lol. (aint excuse ok!!) oh yea, was saying bout ashton. why did i mention lovely was becos the moment i went outta house he started crying non-stop. No chioce that i have t rush home cos love phoned a couple of times saying that he cant handle and your son uh keep crying laaaa -.-'' the best part was i only went out for less than an hour or so. *faint
nvm, no chioce and i cab home asap but the nets machine of the taxi couldnt be detected idk from where and the uncle tried like 3 times. No choice again,he fetched me t the nearest atm t withdraw cash and the meter continued. omfg, thats like innocent money la. almost 8 bucks for less than 2km + midnight charges. how sad. i heard ashton's venting his fustrations while walking home from the lift, i sweared when he's really unhappy. omfg, the whole house can wake up!!!!! faster rushed home then when he saw me, he stopped whinning and screaming and gave a light smile t me. buden i was very sticky, so i needa bath before i can carry him. when i walk int the room, he start his engine again. then i come out preparing myself t bath, he stopped again when he sees me. Walked int the kitchen, start engine again. alamak. but thats really heart-warming, cos he recognises hisssss mummmmyyyyyy !!!!!!!! hahaha , ok. he gonna scream soon. bye

ton ton is sleeping in his play pen now. cos the aunty who's gonna take care of him ask me not t let him sleep in the yao lan anymore if not he's gonna suffer cos it will be hard for him as there isnt any yao lan there. Sadly, i went t register him and make those necessary perparation. He gotta a size 'M' and its like just nice for him, cos thats for 6 months and above, ALAMAK LA ! then i stayed there for a while t see how things work there and i happened t come across this 2 months prolly 2 weeks baby. She cried so badly and care wasnt really attended t her as they wanna train her t sleep on the mattress. Same thing, she sleeps yao lan at home ok! so, im afraid ashton will encounter the same problems so im training him for playpen now. At least if he screams, im here. If not, let say similar incident happens, i think ashton will cry and scream until sore throat la. i swear, he can cry 3 times louder than the lil babygirl. poor thing, cry so long. i think she's really miserable :( gotta urge t just hug her and cuddle her t sleep. aiyoyo. Let's keep my fingers crossed this dont come t ashton. oh ya, went t causeway ytd and brought ashton for shoppppinngggggggggg, with sherald and jiejie. Omfg, i swear kiddy palace is a place for me t avoid. Once i entered, im sure t spend laaaaaaaaaaaa. A-L-W-A-Y-S !!!! had sakae for lunch and when the food haven even come ashton cried for milk & im starving like wtf. no choice, he's my first place. haha, i wanna post his pics nowwwwwwwww cos its really awwwhh !!!!!









love is irritating me non-stop. tickling and grumbling. bye, im gonna seek revenge.
^%#^@&#^&@^$&^&*@%$

p/s: HE'S HAVING HICCUPS LAAAAA & still wanna play


- ashton like people talking t him
- he will scream if you walk away halfway
- he just likes t be entertained :)

& see how he sleep. idk how he can put his leg out. omg

&& its 6 months clothing la, now soooo tight. lil fat fat!

the first set of clothes i bought for him when he's only 3 months in my tummy. haha.doc says 99% BOY, but i die die dont believe. so i bought unisex. lol


back from shower, haha. lemme think of where is the nicest part t start with?? OK, ashton can poo already, this is the best part cos it really lessen my worries! i have a couple of videos of him talking and wanting t play. shall upload ltr after this post. ASHTON'S TURNING 3 MONTHS TMR !!!! and im bringing him for his 1st dose of polio sabin(oral). I hope fever wont come visiting him then :) Time really flies, and im heading back t work after next week, long rest of 4 months at home, 16 weeks t be exact and i aint growing thinner after sooo much physical + mental stressss .omfg, i really needa shed many kilo(s) before i can fit myself back int those old clothings. nana says this can never be achieved by me ok, how bad uh! :(
forgive my random-ness cos im trying very hard t recall what i wanna blog here, facebook ate up most of my time with all the new invites of games la, and i always give a miss t blogger cos im just so lazy. hahahaha. Prepared most of the things that are supposed t be for ashton infant's care. Im heading t make payment tmr after his injection cos i just recieved his baby bonus card #2 and the pin number. The first one isnt gonna stay vaild anymore cos i only recieved the card but not the pin and i cant use. wth la, luckily i made a trip t the bank if not, i think ashton isnt gonna get a place in the infant care. ok, talking bout numbersssss, im getting really annoyed and heartache la. Our marriage registered number opened twice first prize in less than 2 months. WTFFFFFF ! and both times i dint buy cos i wanna save money. &&&& its farking alot of money you know ! LIKE ONE YEAR PAY LAAAAAA ! gosh! i just feel like killing myself and bang my head against the wall till i faint. wanna save what save?? in the end, lose moreeeeeeeeeee ! ok, my fault :( stingy fellow.

the rock uh ashton ???
see how he sleep ?? aiyoyo
haha, im suffering from time lack and time also passes so fast constantly. i think this gonna be kinda long winded post cos i really need t update many a thing(s). lol. but i feel like shitting now & its raining like cats and dogs. lemme assure ashton's sleeping soundly then i proceed t bath and come back. BBBRRRRRRRBBBBBB !!!!

i kinda miss you and idk why am i feeling this way. haha
bad girl